Six months after my husband Richard died, I finally gave away his brown wool coat.
I told myself it was time.
Three weeks later, a man named Gerald called me from a thrift shop in Akron. He sounded nervous.
“Mrs. Hollis? I bought a coat at the donation center. I found something in the pocket, and I think it was meant for you.”
I sat down at the kitchen table.
“What did you find?”
“A list,” he said. “It’s numbered. It goes on for pages.”
Part 2: The List
Gerald drove to my house the next morning, holding a folded sheet of yellow paper soft from being carried.
Richard’s handwriting, slanted and firm. At the top: Reasons I Love Margaret.
1. You laughed at my terrible joke at the Oakwood picnic, the one nobody else laughed at.
2. You make the bed even when we’re both running late.
Gerald said there was more on the back. I turned the page over. The list ran all the way to the bottom.
147. You still hum when you think nobody is listening.
“How long did he carry this?” I asked.
Gerald shifted in his chair. “The coat is from 1998. I’d guess the list went in the pocket around then. But the ink on the last line looks newer.”
147. You still hum when you think nobody is listening. I never told you I liked it. I like it very much.
“He added to it,” I whispered.
Part 3: The Last Number
I didn’t sleep that night. In the morning, I called Gerald and asked him to come back.
I led him to the hallway closet and pulled out the box I had kept since the funeral. Inside was Richard’s small black notebook, the kind he used to write down hardware prices.
On the first page: Reasons Margaret Is Better Than Me.
“He was always making lists about me,” I said, my voice breaking. “I thought it was a joke.”
On the last page, a single line, written the week before he died:
Number 148. I’m going to tell her the rest in person. I’m not finished yet.
I laughed through my tears. “He never got to finish.”
“No,” Gerald said quietly. “But he wrote the next one down anyway.”
I folded the yellow list and put it in my pocket, right where Richard used to keep his peppermints.
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